“There was many moments before going on to a stage, I mean, we’re talking full-blown tears, can’t breathe,” the singer, who just released her third album, Esquinas, revealed on the health and wellness podcast, On Purpose With Jay Shetty.
“If you’ve had a panic attack, you know, the world is ending,” she shared, adding, “There’s also this subconscious part of you that’s like, ‘Girl, breathe. Just breathe. You know what this is.’ But your nervous system can’t tell the difference between the mental bear, and the real bear that’s in the room. And there’s no bears in the room. So, like, chillax.”
She said that when she was struggling with panic attacks, “I didn’t know that was my body physically telling me ‘Something’s wrong. You’re not OK but because you’re scared to let other people down, you’re scared of what other people might say, [so] you push through anyways.’”
Becky (real name: Rebbeca Marie Gomez), said she started looking at her panic attacks as a symptom of something bigger. explaining she used to think, “‘Oh yeah, I just have anxiety and depression, it’s normal. I just have panic attacks all the time.’ Like, no. Your body is telling you something.”
“The body keeps count, the body keeps score of all of what you go through. If you don’t allow your body to feel it, somatically…[you get the] manifestation of the panic attacks and things like that,” the “Mamiii” singer said. “Anxiety and depression are not the diagnosis, they’re the result of [experiences].”
The Inglewood, California, native said her therapist got her looking at life like a three-legged table, propped up by spiritual, physical, and mental wellness.
“It makes me very proud of myself to know that I can look at myself every day in the mirror and say, ’I know it’s going to be really hard and it’s going to be challenging and there's going to be things that trigger a response from you, maybe that is second nature. We are going to take time to process. We’re gonna add some filters in your process that are better for you.’”
She says that she works out, meditates daily, sometimes twice a day, and goes on week-long social media detoxes once a month — going so far as to delete the apps, which is “super helpful for me on the mental side.”
The singer, who did voice-overs and commercials as a child to help support her family, said she decided to open up on the podcast because “when you start in a career as young as I did, it’s very much so, like, ’Put your head down, get it done,’” she said. “And you just keep going, and then you blink and you’re like, 26…there’s a little bit of an awakening.”